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    A #BashSAD Update


    It’s a new year, and for many of us, a fresh start and a time to get started on some big goals. Last year I blogged about how I’ve shifted my own New Year – in terms of goals and resolutions – to start in April, because Seasonal Affective Disorder means that cold, dark January is the worst possible time for me to begin. It’s the period where I feel the most sluggish and run down and sleepy – so I’d be setting myself up to fail.

    Well, after lots of us took part in a #BashSAD challenge in October, it’s time for an update on my own SAD journey, three months on. And things have changed somewhat!

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    A #BashSAD Roundup

    #BashSAD Fruit Smoothie

    Well, I think that was possibly the most energised and productive October I’ve ever had. I loved the October Bash SAD Challenge!

    Yes, there were days where I had to swap things round a little because, for example, it was raining cats and dogs and eating lunch outside wasn’t an option. And there was the day I took my smiley selfie but then my laptop died and I couldn’t share it. Boo.

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    The Tea With Miss Beatrix October SAD Bashing Challenge… Let’s Do This!


    In this post I shared vague plans for putting together a challenge similar to the 30 Day Ab Challenge in the name of getting into positive, Seasonal Affective Disorder-beating habits in time for the cold, dark months ahead. I absolutely love Autumn and Winter, but unfortunately they don’t like me, and I become down, sleepy and sluggish until the sun shines once again. You can read more about my journey with SAD here and here.

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    New Beginnings: An Update on Seasonal Affective Disorder

    In January last year I wrote a post about Seasonal Affective Disorder. To my surprise lots of people have been in touch since, to tell me that they suffer from SAD too, or to say that they read this post and came to realise why it is that they feel like a different person during the dark winter months. I’ve come to a significant decision in my dealings with this disorder in the past week, so I thought now, as we emerge from another winter, might be as good a time as any to give you an update on how I’ve coped with it this year, and other little positive habits I’ve picked up in doing so.

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    Some Thoughts on Seasonal Affective Disorder

    I was eighteen years old when I was diagnosed with Seasonal Affective Disorder (SAD). I was in my first winter of university and felt I wasn’t quite handling life with the same verve, capability and energy as my new friends. While they appeared to run on batteries that never drained, I felt shattered all the time, thought about hiding in my bed even more than is normal for your average student, and in fact, felt miserable. Not knowing why made me even more miserable. I even joked that perhaps I’d been a badger in a previous life – after all, I really identified with the impulse to feed myself up then crawl into a warm safe place and shut down until the blossom was on the trees. I didn’t realise that I was right – I was trying to get my brain to work in tune with the demands of the modern day lifestyle, while my body wanted to make like my ancestors and feed up, be active for the short daylight hours, then sleep whenever it was dark. It seemed I was fighting my own chronobiology. (Word of the day for you there). 
    Diagnosis was a relief because it meant that a) it wasn’t anything too serious (in my case), and something I could quite definitely handle myself without medication, and b) I was normal. I had been worried until that point that the student life wasn’t for me, that I was in some way not cut out for it.
    Life continued, as it does, and to be honest, I didn’t take the disorder too seriously. I noticed it, alright. I noticed that by October everything from doing the laundry to getting up in the morning became much, much harder work. I noticed that I craved sugary food and hot drinks almost constantly, felt more dopey – less switched on in my work. I noticed that I seemed to crawl through the days and weeks, feeling frustrated because I’d fall into bed every night having lived exactly the same, unproductive, shattering day as the one before. I obsessed over silly mistakes, worried even more than usual and lost the ability to concentrate without monumental effort. But I suppose although I’d had a proper diagnosis I didn’t want to acknowledge the disorder as a real presence, something that very much dominates half my year and needed dealing with.
    I’m not sure what changed. Perhaps I finally got fed up with feeling constantly tired, lethargic and frustrated with myself for never achieving all I wanted to each day. I remember being surprised when work colleagues would ask, say on a Wednesday, what I would be doing with my evening. Doing with my evening? Isn’t being at work all day enough? 

    It began to feel as though my twenties were slipping away, and I wasn’t filling my days with all the fun stuff I’d imagined. In fact, I was losing half of each year to SAD and spending the other half trying to get the right amount of daylight vs. too much sun exposure, and recovering from the winter. That’s half of my entire life. I was also irritated, because I actually really love autumn and winter. I look forward to the leaves falling, warm woolly jumpers, boots and gloves, Bonfire Night and Christmas and snow and hot chocolate. Having to dread the colder months because it meant putting life on hold until the spring wasn’t an option. 
    So in 2011 I started to take SAD more seriously. To be grown up about it, and to view it as a presence which visits each year, but with the right attitude, something which can be accommodated and can even help me to live a healthier lifestyle. 
    You may be wondering why I decided to write about this topic on a blog which is primarily about crafts, creativity and splashings of vintage. Well first of all, it’s thought that the numbers of sufferers of SAD are really quite high here in the northern hemisphere. For some it’s a case of feeling a little down, more sleepy than usual. For others it’s full blown, debilitating, life-ruining depression. Famous gardener Monty Don, for example, suffers terribly (interesting article here, by the way). I thought that if any of you reading this might identify with any of what I’m saying, you may be able to do something about it. Simple. Second, if you’re a regular reader of this ‘ere weblog we probably have a fair few interests in common. In which case you’ll identify with number 3 below:
    How I Deal With SAD

    1. Don’t be a llama like I was. Take it seriously. SAD doesn’t mean you’re going to spend half of every year on anti-depressants (some sufferers do need them, but for most it isn’t necessary). A few lifestyle changes should help you through.
    2. I do have a lightbox. I’m not entirely convinced it works, but then I’ll take the placebo effect. I like to pop mine on first thing in the morning as it helps me wake up if nothing else. Read about those here
    3. CREATIVITY. I actually feel at my least creative at this time of year. Or I come up with ideas, but lack the motivation and energy required to bring them to fruition. But being creative – or doing whatever it is that you love – will go a long, long way in helping you. SAD is one of the main reasons I started Creatives Unite. Take advantage! I can’t put into words just how much this blog and crafts help me feel more energised and give me purpose and confidence at a time when I usually feel worthless, miserable and worn out. Whether it’s gardening like Monty Don, painting, crochet, writing or playing the ukulele, make time in your day for it. It’s the perfect excuse, after all. 
    I’ll stop carping on in a minute
    4. Get outside whenever you can. It seems obvious, I know, but it’s the single most important thing you can do. It’s no coincidence that I started dealing with my SAD better when I got myself a dog. Bea makes me get outside in the fresh air and daylight every day, without fail. If I had a day where I couldn’t be bothered, she’d suffer. If you don’t have a dog, borrow one, or get yourself a walking buddy and hold each other accountable. If you struggle to get out in the daylight during the working day even ten minutes during your lunch break helps. Then at weekends get outside as much as possible, come rain or shine. Gardening’s actually a really good one because it helps you work alongside nature – after all, fighting it is one of the main reasons folk suffer from SAD. This January seems to be lacking that very bright crisp sunlight we usually get, so it’s even more important. The exercise will work wonders too. Speaking of which…
    5 Exercise. Or, to rephrase – be active. SAD makes me want to curl up on the sofa or in my bed and not wake up until March. I feel sluggish and cold and the last thing I want to do is grab my shorts and a cold bottle of water and hop on the exercise bike. So I don’t try. Nowadays I go to jive classes with a friend once a week. I’m so busy giggling and trying to remember the steps I don’t realise I’m exercising. I walk Bea every day, even if it’s dark out. I try and do some yoga at home several days a week too. Stretching my muscles and doing the poses at my own pace is something I can manage even when I feel lethargic. The meditation time also gives me an excuse to imagine myself on sunny beaches and in summer meadows – perfect for convincing the brain that it’s not really winter after all. (Heat wave!) Failing all that, I pop some cheesy music on my iPod and dance around the house with the hoover. Trust me, everyone does it. 
    My partner in SAD thrashing.
    Having a furry friend who doesn’t know how not to be happy really helps!
    6. Food. In the warmer months I truly love a good salad and lots of fruit. But in the winter I feel the cold, and the idea of sinking my teeth into chilly vegetation doesn’t always appeal. This year I’m making more of an effort to eat hot food packed with vegetables instead. I get a Graze box once a week, and drink fruit teas when I’m at work. I also have a fruit smoothie with spirulina most days. SAD – and winter in general – makes us crave fatty, salty foods, so it’s about making sure I feel full without eating rubbish that will make me more sluggish and sleepy. (That said, I never want it written on this blog that a slice of cake or a stodgy pud every now and again won’t do you the world of good. Just not every day.) 
    7. Make the most of your more productive hours. Once I prise myself out of bed I am actually a morning person, so I make sure I get all the boring stuff that must be done out of the way in the mornings. If it’s not a working day I use the time when I’m more sleepy in an afternoon to go out for a walk, or do active stuff like housework. Feeling down can mean a lot of procrastination, which leads to frustration and feeling more down, so I try to stop it creeping in and work to my own rhythm as much as my working day allows. 
    8. Lastly – and this is a new thing for me that I’ve just brought in with the new year – I’ve given myself a bedtime. I feel like I’m about eight again, but it seems to be working. Getting enough sleep and having a good sleep routine help to curb the sleepiness and lethargy during the day. I also try to get up at the same time every day, even if I’m craving that Sunday lie in. I get up, head straight for the kettle, then spend the lie in time crafting instead. 
    I really hope this post has given you some ideas for beating SAD if you think you may be a sufferer (check out my SAD Pinterest board for more inspiration), but let’s face it, January and February can be difficult for everyone. No money, getting up in the dark, cold weather and illnesses flying around can make even the most sunny personality feel a little blue. One thing we can all be sure of – Spring always arrives. Bulbs seem to be sprouting early this year, and before you know it we’ll be stripping off that third scarf, raising our faces to the sun and giving a whopping sigh of relief. It’s a magical feeling every year. 
    Over the next couple of weeks I hope to feature a few different recipes and food ideas I use at this time of year to feel comforted and full, but without stuffing myself with the sugar and fat I crave. 

    If you’ve made it this far, thank you for reading, and if any of the above sounds familiar, I hope this post can help. Now go and create something!

    PS: If you suspect you may suffer from SAD, rather than just a touch of the January blues, do read this on the Mind website. Also, allow me to sound like your mother and tell you to see your GP if you’re not sure whether you have depression. It could be part of SAD, or it could not, but both need taking seriously.

    PPS: The photos on this walk were taken on an awful day where I had wanted to take some craft project photos for this blog, but it never really got light in the house (any other bloggers having this problem?) I took Bea for a walk instead and found that there is always something to photograph after all. 

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    Autumn Adventures with a Vintage Ladybird Book

    This vintage Ladybird nature book from 1966 was always present in my home when I was growing up, but it’s only been this year that I sat down with it and looked at it properly. Looking turned to admiration at the stunning artwork within its covers, evoking a longing within me to don my wellie boots and go out nature spotting.
    So that’s exactly what I did. Using this book as my own ‘I Spy’ guide (remember those?), I captured autumnal images over a period of several weeks. 

    Our pre-Christian ancestors celebrated Autumn as the New Year, marking the end of the light half of the year and the beginning of the dark. 

    I have always loved getting out and about in nature, but this project made me really notice the little changes that happen as the seasons rotate, and appreciate everything from a hilltop scene changing colour to the arrival of a single mushroom.
    As much as I adore Autumn and Winter I do suffer from Seasonal Affective Disorder, so it’s really important that I get out in the daylight during these months as much as possible. Using What to Look for in Autumn reminds me that we are all natural creatures, and that by living more by the seasons and less by the clock, the television schedule and the demands of working life we can feel more in tune with nature and get more out of each season. As the adage goes, 

    “Those who never get outside cannot thrive.”

    I certainly feel much happier when I get outside and don’t spend the entire week under electric lighting.

    I think I need the other three books in the series, now! What do you love most about Autumn?

    Wishing you a leaf-crunching Monday,